Wednesday, 12 May 2010 03:08

DEPENDS WHO YOU ASK

I’m not sure if it’s a function of advancing age or just the times we’re living in, but it’s almost impossible for me to find complete external validation in any one thought, desire, instinct or vision anymore.

Who do you want to be exactly like? Is there anybody in this world who’s laid down a template for your dreams and goals that you’d copy and paste over your own life’s story? Maybe you want to spend your nights after work in south LA at Wingstop or traveling the world hoping that these little moments will last. One half of the control group will tell you it's not worth it, that you might as well just live the single life and hit the road. The other half will tell you that it was the flash point for their entire life and that they'd be nowhere without their significant other. The answer depends on the experience had be each person you talk to. Maybe the "Nos" spent their days curled up in a ball fighting with their boyfriend or girlfriend on the phone and never applied themselves to making the most of their time. You'll never find the answer you want, just information with which to build your own idea and chart your own course.

Take my friend, I called her tonight in LA and she answers while driving the 110 home. Talk about a juxtaposition; me on the phone and her fiancé in the car listening to every word. Her advice points out, "typical Carl, letting the good ones go and taking out the trash" the clamant flaws in my life that should go under a review board. Quickly I realized the impact that I've had on people's lives and I'm almost fearful to let go and move on. What if I regret this like I have in the past? If you’re not sure of what you love, that means you can be talked out of it, and that’s a slippery slope.

It all depends on who you ask.

Which is a pretty great reason to stop asking all together. Nobody’s life template will ever lay evenly over yours. And in those times when they clash completely, you have to walk alone, with confidence that you’re creating your own template, made out of your own instincts and your own dreams and your own goals. And if you do it long enough, maybe someone someday will look to yours as the life to model theirs after. Of course, some people won’t agree with them. It will all depend on who they ask.

CV

Friday, 20 November 2009 11:44

HONORABLE MENTION

I've always said, "If I didn't have a camera I wouldn't travel" I think deep down I have this sense that I'm a photographer and that maybe I'll capture those images that will put people in awe. Until then here are some honorable mentions. ENJOY

Wednesday, 11 November 2009 22:43

25 FACTS YOU MIGHT NOW KNOW ABOUT CARL

1. I was obsessed with reading about airplanes when I was a kid.

2. When I was born I was already awesome. I think it runs in the family.

3. I flew an airplane by myself by the age of 18 at Muskegon Airport.

4. When I was young, I'd lock myself in my room and record my favorite songs from the radio on to tape and practice singing them. Then in the evening I'd drape my sheets over my bunk-bed to make it resemble a stage and would charge my mom a dollar to watch me perform.

5. I'm named after my dad's best friend who died in a plane crash and my grandpa died in a plane crash when my father was 12 years old. Hopefully there's no irony here considering I'm a pilot.

6. I am secretly in love with chicken and if she were a woman I would marry her. I would cheat on her with lucky charms but I am pretty sure I could convince them to have a ménage à trois.

7. I don't have many favorites, but my favorite game is hide and seek.

8. I didn't drink until I was 22.

9. I have an uncontrollable urge to steal things even though I perfectly capable of affording it, I like the rush.

10. I taught myself how to make balloon animals when I was little.

11. I had a horrible temper when I was a kid. I would clench my fists and turn red in the face as my whole body would shake. Calm down buddy.

12. When I was younger, my mom would make me sit at the table until I finished all my food... Never happened! My dad would always come to the rescue. What can I say I know what I like and what I don't.

13. Macgyver was my all time hero and the password to my first ever savings account.

14. I had my first girlfriend my junior year of high school.

15. I used to dress up like a police officer and help old ladies cross the street to church.

16. I almost always move to new cities with less than 3 weeks notice.

17. I plan on having sex at all 7 wonders of the world.

18. I made a promised to myself I would know at least one other language fluently before I have kids so they can be raised bilingual (I actually plan on at least 5)

19. Every Christmas and Birthday I asked for a power wheel and to this day I haven't gotten one.

20. I have already begun the floor plans for the coolest tree house ever. I always wanted one as a child and never had one.

21. I learn a lot about myself from my dreams.

22. My first cat never had a name and he was my "police dog"...

23. One of my 3 measures for personal success is starting a charity. It is already mapped out.

24. I no longer have my tonsils and almost lost my splene.

25. I would take a cute dorky girl over a super hot model girl in a heart beat.

Sunday, 01 November 2009 21:54

BUCKET LIST

Death bites. But dying while healthy, rich and free enough to drink life to the last drop is ludicrous.

The idea's premise resonates. That’s why I have created a dream "do" list! This list is far from complete and will probably be ever changing but I've already started to cross some items off!

Places
- Visit a concentration camp (I love learning about WWII)
- Visit the ancient city of Petra in Jordan (Indian Jones Baby)
- Attend at least one major sporting event: the Super Bowl, the Olympics, the U.S. Open
- Stand With The Terracotta Army Statues In China
- Visit Masai Mara, Kenya (Get up close and personal with africa’s wildlife)
- Visit the Great Wall of China, ride a motorcycle on it
- Then ride a camel to the pyramids of Egypt.
- Scuba dive on The Great Barrier Reef (I love scuba diving!)
- Take a helicopter ride over the Grand Canyon
- Visit the Colosseum in Rome
- Celebrate New Year’s Eve in Time Square
- Drive across America from coast to coast
- Go skinny-dipping at midnight in the South of France

Things
- Fly in a fighter jet/airplane (F16, Mustang and Spitfire)
- Have a dinner date in a hot air balloon
- Go wing-walking
- Make love on a train
- Skydive
- Have a fireman's pole in my house (Could double as a stripper pole)
- Shower in a waterfall
- Watch the launch of the space shuttle
- Join the mile high club
- Go zorbing
- Base Jumping!
- See the northern lights
- Tank Paintballing!!!
- Drive a monster truck over cars
- Solo an airplane
- Make love on the kitchen floor while dinner is cooking
- Perform with John Mayer
- Donate money and get my name on something: a college scholarship, or a charity
- Spend a night in a haunted house -- by myself
- Make love at all seven wonders of the world

Personal Goals
- Become wealthy
- Become independent from work
- Pay myself first
- Pay myself $55.00 a day for a whole year (That’s $20,075 Saved!)
- Finish my pilots license (Only two more tests!)
- Finish my skydiving license (About 12 more jumps!)
- Write a hit song
- Build a tree fort with all the accessories (For my kids; when I have some)
- See for myself that the earth is round (Spaceshuttle Voyage!)
- Learn to juggle with three balls

Thursday, 22 October 2009 21:43

Hi!

Hi out there...
thought I'd check in to let you all know what's up in my world...
I've been working a lot lately... I'm enjoying off time right now from performing. That means I'm not really playing any shows as I concentrate on bettering my musical skills. Traditionally that would mean that you never see me at all, and my absence makes your hearts grow fonder, and then I appear again with my next collection of work and we all get grooving again. Things have changed a bit, and the decision to slide on and off your radar isn't so much my own anymore. But I'm too young to stomp my feet about it. All I can do is concentrate on keeping my heart and soul correct and then redecorate around it.

So the life you see in pictures of me might not resemble the one you saw when you first met me, but I'd be willing to bet your life looks different since then, too. All that matters is that the evolution of being a person stays correct, and I think when you hear me next you won't regret a thing...because I sure haven't.

And I get it... I don't apologize for a lick of it, but I get it... I just think sometimes in the middle of all the madness you just need to hear my voice to let you know that I'm still here. So here I am. And maybe from now on I'll give you some more updates so that you don't feel as if I've disappeared and been replaced with a robotic clone, like in that movie The Last Starfighter, though if I had been, I'd want you to know that I'm very happy where I am defending the great planet of Rylos, long may she prosper.

Sorry. Sorry. Where was I?

I think that covers it, just a quick check-in... Hope you're all well and as excited about the future as I am. I'm looking forward to the shows!

Catch up again soon...
Carl

Sunday, 29 June 2008 20:15

WARM WELCOME

Hugging my Mom and girlfriend, Sarah, and that's when fear started setting in. I started wondering when will I see them again. I turned to head to the flight gate. I didn't want to turn because I was already struggling to hold back my tears and I didn't want to see that pain that I've caused. Passing thru the TSA personnel I took my seat and immediately started texting Sarah. As we took off the signal faded and for the first time I felt alone.

9:50AM PST I arrive at LAX. I had thought about this day a lot. What it would be like on my own and the closest person I know was 3,000 miles away. Luckily I was greeted by an old friend I hadn't seen since High School, Jacob, and now my new roommate.

Sunday, 22 June 2008 22:40

GOODBYE PARTY!

Just days before my departure, my family throws a going away party. It's the last time that we're all going to be together for a while. I arrived to smiling faces and open arms, my Mom and Aunt Phyl hastefully preparing food. Shortly after I arrive other friends and family trickle into the party.

My father and I setup outside and started playing tunes back and forth. Ari took our guitar picks and strummed away magnetized by the noise.